BEING 40+…could you please believe in MY DREAM?!

Yeah, I know, it sounds stupid…

Why would any one want to believe in MY dream?!

In fact, why should I even need for others to believe in my dream?

Is it holding me back from going for it? NO

Am I enjoying it less? NO

then?… WELL… because I want to share this with others… I want to know that there are people cheering me on…

are you sure about that? what if you don’t make it? what if you fail? do you really want others to see you in that situation?

The thing is, I am not going to fail, I want to them to see me BELIEVE IN MY DREAM… to see me rejoice in bringing this dream from the realm of my mind into our reality… 

I think they are not fully aware of how important this is to you! They don’t know your story…

…but they should! it’s been my dream ever since I had to decide on my career back when I was about to finish highschool, when I decided I wanted to study Graphic Design, then changed it to Advertising just to find out those careers weren’t part of the options here which is when I opted for Architecture, the closest thing to either of them…it gave me a chance to cultivate, enhance and focus my creativity… but even before this, I had a collection of stationary paper, Hello Kitty was the epitome of fabulous graphic design for me, so bold, colorful, full of knick knacks that were all essential in a girl’s desk: the stamps, colored pens, fabulous organizers, etc…

Anyway, I never let it go though people thought I did when they saw me drafting and making scale models… until recently…

remember that line from Robots, “See a need, Fill a need…”

I had the NEED to make my dream come true, and I FILLED it… just to suddenly realize that my dream turned exciting-plan-in-progress was also going to fill some people’s need, a frivolous one maybe, but a need none the less… So I got to it and have not stopped…

You sound quite motivated, are you sure you need others in this exciting plan in progress?

Hhhmmm, I don’t NEED-NEED, in reality no one close to me can help me, they don’t design, they don’t cut with an x-acto knife, my daughter uses the glue gun but at a level of dexterity below what I need for my designs…

I would like support of the emotional kind, no hands on, just a positive comment once in a while, or “how’s it going?”… instead of How much money are you investing in this? and how much are you going to make from it?, are you going back to work on that? How much money did you say you were planning to profit? Is it really worth all your time and effort? Were you working on your things when you should have been doing x,y and z? (this last one is my self-critical voice when I get nervous about not tending to family matters because I am enjoying myself too much creating my designs)

I’d like to know I am letting no one down because I am working on something that apparently only benefits me…and I say apparently because, even though I might not be able to make the next house payment with my profit, watching someone make their dream come true is a privilege…

I saw this quote some time ago:

Apartment 34 | Happy {Be a Game Changer} Weekend

 

…it was a few months after I had started to work at the highschool I’m in… I had heard the owner talk about how this school had been his dream for a long time and now it was a reality… and we, the teachers, were all helping him achieve it…

…aaahhh, I was hired by someone to help build his dream…

I felt honored to be a part of this new project (and I still do!) and I was awakened to see my own dormant dreams!

I was sure it was now my turn…

I forgot about pride…Pride who? The only fool is the one that does try… (where did I read this?)

Risk… c’mon, I’m 40+, it’s only paper, yeah, paper cuts hurt but they don’t kill… It’s just me, my computer and a client, I only take on what I can handle, no more…

Pointless? only from other’s view… to me it makes so much sense, it’s like: Why not? …My point? MAKE MY DREAM COME TRUE, CREATE BEAUTIFUL THINGS, SEE MY CREATIONS BEAUTIFYING PEOPLE’S EVENTS… yeah, that’s the point, oh, and:

I love creativity, it runs in my blood, it fuels me…

Feeling tired after a long day CREATING makes for a fulfilled life…

Anyway, I get it, maybe you are the voice of reason, those who question me and my motives…

You are left-brained, I am RIGHT-BRAINED and this is my dream turned exciting-plan-in-progress, are you with me?

It would be very nice to have you along, come see how the other side lives and thinks AND CREATES…

RIGHT-BRAINED or LEFT-BRAINED? either, sending you xo lovely people

13 responses to “BEING 40+…could you please believe in MY DREAM?!

  1. Mame, mine isn’t either…My blog is about me and what I do, I’ve been blessed/lucky to have made a connection with lovely people like you with similar thoughts and interests…so I just post my stuff and hope it inspires someone to try their own version… I’d love to see how you’ve been getting crafty!! I’ll have some pics up soon🙂 xo

  2. I’d love to see your students’ work! I’ve thought about posting a few of our projects just for fun, even though mine is not an art blog.
    Can’t wait to see what you post! =+)

  3. Tienes toda la razón, crecimos pidiendo permiso y buscando el gesto aprobatoria para cada cosita que hacemos… have got to break that habit and find appreciation and acceptance in ourselves, trust our instincts… vienes para semana santa? nosotros nos quedaremos en la ciudad…🙂 xo my dear cosmically connected friend

  4. It is time for us… we are a generation that has been asking for permission for everything.. our parents, our spouses and now even our children need to approve of what we do or say… asi que A LA CHINGADA.. nos toca YA.. WE NEED TO SEE EACH OTHER SOON..

  5. Your artistry is a blessing to so many people. Don’t ever stop creating! I’d love to see more photos of your work on the blog — they are always an inspiration to me!

  6. It’s ALL about creativity, my darling. And it is part of, if not all of, your purpose to express it as unique to you. (From one cheerleader to another)🙂 Xxx

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